For anyone who happens to read my blog....
I have been struggling a lot lately. My faith is worn down.
I know this is a personal thing to ask. But, if you could.
Would you leave your testimony in the comments? I am struggling.
Please tell me about your faith.
I am worn thin and I don't know if I can stand on my own right now.
Hey Girl, I know I've felt pretty worn down lately too and it's been interesting to me that the first thing I do when I'm down is to kick the gospel to the curb a little bit. I get caught up in the mundane things...the business didn't do well, the boat motor needs to be replaced (where the heck is that money going to come from?), McKenzie is really struggling with her reading, I have a cold, Maggie has decided that 5 hours of sleep is enough, it's rained for a week straight....and on and on and on. And then I have a moment where God most quietly says...it's going to be ok. For instance, this morning I was upset with my husband and so yelled at my kids and practically pushed them out the door to school just to get them out of my hair. In my mind I was grumbling the whole time and then sat down to read through a few blogs. Most of the blogs I read/look at, have to do with photography but the first one of the list today was of a girl I've never met who has had some serious physical struggles. Her entire post was talking about the very things that were going through my mind and how everything is going to be ok. Coincidence??? I think not. It was God saying..."Shake it off Honey, You can do hard things." God loves you, He loves me, and Life is Hard. That is my testimony right now.
ReplyDeleteTwo things that have stood out to me and kept me from completely losing faith have been 1) My knowledge that I am a daughter of God and that He loves me. There was a time when that was literally the only thing I knew. It was dark and lonely, but because of that soul preserver, I survived. You are a daughter of God as well. He knows and loves you. He wants you to succeed and to feel good. It's Satan that convinces us we aren't worth anything, that puts negative and self-depricating thoughts in our mind. Not God. Never God. 2) Gratitude is the closest thing I have found to a cure-all. Taking the time each day to write down even 3 things that I am grateful for has been a tremendous blessing, not just thanking Heavenly Father in my prayers for things, but literally writing it down. Sometimes it's a simple list. Other times there are more lengthy entries. Either way, it can turn a bad day/week/whatever around faster than anything else I've found.
ReplyDeleteHang tight to the iron rod, friend. You'll come out of those dark mists soon.
this is hard for me because i have been feeling the same way. the other night i pleaded in my nighttime prayer. tears flowed freely. the only thing i feel strongly about right now, this second, is that our heavenly father loves us no matter what, all the time. i never thought i would be in this position, but i am. it sucks, but i have faith that it will make me a better, stronger person in the end. love you em.
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